gets rather temperamantal these days.

Mr Yeoh Aun Chian,
please!
stop getting temperamental!

there is a reason behind for this.........

I AM RETIRING!
BY THE END OF THIS MONTH!

since early in the year,
i have started trying better to make sure,
the committee,
the juniors,
will be able, to stand by their own feet, when we, the form fives, retire.

these days,
i observed more closely.

-when they see a cockroach,
noone, was courageous enough, proactive enough,
to move a step, and SMASH IT....

do i have to come back and kill a cockroach when i retire?

-when they need help,
they don't seek help, they wait,
to be realized,
for help to come......

as i have always said, seeking help when necessary, is being responsible.
what will happen after this?

-the way they treat the next pengerusi,
WORRIES ME.....

maybe they just can't accept, that leaders have different attributes.
not all leaders can express in english well,
not all leaders can use the appropriate tone when instructing...

they laugh, when she is inarticulate when she uses english
they shout, when she tells them that they are wrong
they backstab, when they don't like her...

blimey,
all these don't happen if i do the same thing as her....

Juniors,
please,
please,
please,
give her a chance!
she is there for a reason!

she and i are different,
she has her strong points, i have mine.

learn to follow and at the same time help her, and make me feel better.

-the way they sit and stand still when they can actually help, provokes me...
only in my last month,
i realized,
they are not proactive enough.

maybe the leader did not instruct as vivid as i did.
but still,
do help!
when you think you can.

maybe i pampered you all too much?
you all trusted the leader to instruct?

whatever it is,
be aware of what is happening,
do whatever you can.

do i have to come back next time, merely to instruct>?
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gave 3 lectures this week.
it is never what i want,
to lecture in front,
using so not friendly tone to convey my message,
but,
do i have a choice?

2 lectures were about their reactions when they see a cockroach in the library.
their reactions were, pathetic.

compared ourselves to the japanese,
what a vast difference......

they are surrounded by penetrative rays,
we are only facing a cockroach.........................................

how sad.

If the power of human,
succumbed to the power of a cockroach,
it is pathetic.........................................

3rd lecture.
only in 1 simple ceremony,
in which i was only there for the speech and briefing,
i found 5 evidences,
proving that they aren't proactive enough.

after the ceremony, i started the post mortem straight away.

reprimanded on their attitude, their awareness.
i did not erupt on the spot, i want them to keep their dignity they best way they can.

5 evidences.

i pointed out one by one.
i told them,
I AM WORRIED!

a few of them have tears rolling in their eyes.

one smsed me at night, apologized.

my mood was lifted a little,
seeing that they repent.
i was glad enough.

if, the leader were to give vivid instructions beforehand,
every thing would have been smooooth.
with helping hands every where.

if, the members were to be proactive,
every thing would have been smooooth.
with helping hands every where.

it depends, ON BOTH.

After the lecture,
i told them to recover the library into its normal state.
(tables and chairs were kept for the ceremony)
and i stood there,
observing, with delight.

It has been long,
since i have seen such POWERFUL TEAMWORK.

girls and boys,
together,
assembling tables,
arranging chairs.

in LESS THAN 2 MINUTES,
THE WHOLE LIBRARY WAS AS TIDY AS BEFORE.

I SMILED.

I WAS JUBILANT.

the lecture played a part,
i managed to rekindle their awareness,
boosted their speed.

and so,
it was so, so, shocking.

no one stood still, every one helped.

my mood changed instantly,

'I have to say, this is EXCELLENT. This is what we call having teamwork, and initiative'
I smiled, happy with what they have done.

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Librarians,
i apologize.

if my scoldings were because i am nervous,
i am unsure.

i don't know, how prepared you guys are.
not only me, your form 5 seniors,
we are WORRIED.
VERY WORRIED.

i believe that i have done enough,
to give you all enough chances to learn.

some of you grasped.
congratulations!
you will be independent.

those who missed.
please!
don't miss,
any of it,
anymore.

I am unconfident,
that's why,
i am getting temperamental.

forgive me,
for being so worried.

forgive me,
for being so reluctant to leave you all.

but please.

for this last month,
prove yourselves READY!
give me confidence!

show me,
that when the old flowers shed,
you all,
the colourful buds,
are ready,
to BLOOM!

jiayou!

aunchian